Saturday, February 22, 2014 @ 3:52 AM  3 stares

tonight.. i found myself asking
"why are people trying to change who i am?"

and i found myself answering 
"bukan diorang.. xdak sapa kisah pon nina
nina yang buat mcm ni kat diri sendiri"

i read my blog
and i cried
i missed who i was
i honestly do

but i can't go back
but the person i am is soo tiring

i'm so tired 

i am

i honestly am


but looking at my result
looking at what i've achieved 
they are far from what i am capable of
far from what i deserve

but i'm tired

i am

i honestly am

thinking about who i am
there are a few things i have to change
there are a lot that i'm lacking 

but i'm tired

i am

i honestly am

i've gained a lot
yet my grip is letting go of things that i used to have no problem holding onto

is it because i'm tired?

i am

i honestly am

 i feel like screaming for help
i feel like hitting pause 

Ya Allah help me 
i'm tired
i am
i honestly am