Thursday, August 2, 2012 @ 6:57 AM  3 stares
Assalamualaikum :) Hey~

ever heard of the word fetish?.. 
(and my blog is slowly turning into a dictionary with random ramblings)

Fetish means something like a weird habit or a weird attachment to something weird..
well something like that.. you can google for more info..

i realized that i happen to own a few random fetishes 
but today i'm just going to discuss ONE!

1) "Sound of Sneeze" Fetish

hahaha..disgusting? not really, its a part of nature
to tell you the truth i have this weird fetish of enjoying the sound of people sneezing
they're like music to my ears!

everyone has their own sound of sneeze and we apparently have no control over it!
i like it when i hear people continuously sneezing..
there's like a unique rhythm to it 

okay this is kind of disgusting...i'll stop now! hahaha

come to think of it, we might think that we have no control over what our sneeze sound like
well, actually, we do..

i used to sneeze like a cat
haaachhhh.....(bersin tak abes)

and then i got scolded by my sister and father for not sneezing correctly 
hahaha yeppp i did!!
i heard the "mu kno bersin bagi habis" speech for almost my whole life!

in my defence..i sneeze that way because i remembered what i learned in elementary school
my ustazah said 
"bersin kena tutup mulut.. kena tutup idung"
and so.. i did..LITERALLY..which led to the bersin tak abes thing

and then after getting scolded and reading a few sneezing related articles in estidotmy
and learning about the human respiratory system...
i realized what i was doing was not good for my body
so i gradually changed the way i sneeze
now.. no more cat sneeze!!.. well .. its really hard to break a live long habit
i still "cat sneeze" sometimes but most of the time, i manage to sneeze the RIGHT way!

only much much later that i  realized what my ustazah really meant was COVER your mouth and nose.. 
what i understood back then was PREVENT / BLOCK them from going out through my nose/mouth

you see.. The Malay Language can be complicated.. 
TUTUP can mean so many different things

tetapi  walau ape pon ..bahasa melayu tetap di hati~
to me, malay have this special feel to it that no other language does!

i guess my brain were processing information in English even back then!
(the exact same reason why my malay essays tend to have weird sentence structure)

wahahahaha bravo little nina!
you even though you were kinda blur, and silly, you were still a cute way

and i thought i've changed in a lot of ways 
i guess i haven't really
i'm still AWESOME and cute
occasionally blur and silly
but that's what makes me, ME!

tgk ...perasan sudaah!
use your ramadhan wisely!!
nak abehh dahh!! T____T

Wednesday, August 1, 2012 @ 9:16 AM  1 stares


today i was scrolling like a boss down the twitter's timeline and came across something that made me cry on the 1st of August! 

My mum carried me for nine months. She felt sick for those months with nausea, then she watched her feet swell & her skin stretch.

She cried. She struggled to climb stairs, she got breathless quickly and she even suffered many sleepless nights.

She then went through excruciating pain to bring me into this world

Then, she became my nurse, my chef, my maid, my chauffeur, my biggest fan, my teacher & my best friend.

She’s struggled for me, cried over me, hoped the best for me and prayed for me. Most of us take our mum for granted. Don't.

This ramadan when you remember the rest of the ummah in your duas, remember the most important woman in your lives. :) #iloveyoumum

credit : @IslamicThinking

and that's my beloved mother Junaidha Abdullah!!
Pretty right? that's from last year's raya
this year she's even prettier and thinner!

and this is not a bodek attempt! she doesn't even read my blog!

and all this time you guys think i'm awesome? you clearly haven't met my mother yet!!

i love you mama!!
Thanks for always being here for me strength..
accepting me for the FISH that i am.. 
I'm sorry i'm not as smart as my other siblings but i'm trying really hard
i'm sorry for getting bad SPM result
i can imagine how hard it is for you to answer to your colleges when they ask what did i get   

i'm sorry for being so high maintenance
i'm sorry i'm ridiculously allergic to ridiculous things 
I'm trying my best not to be fussy 
and i'm trying really hard to be everything you want me to be
which is being the best me that i can be.. 
because all along , all you ever wanted is for me to be happy for my own sake

Thank you for enduring every piece of emotions that i throw at you on purpose or by accident
thank you for always forgiving me...and not ignoring me when screw up
i'm sorry for all the sins i've burden you with ..and is burdening you and papa until the day i get married
i'll try my best not to burden you with my sins any more
even though i've let you two down countless times, 

i don't want to be the reason the two of you lose your rights to be in Jannah.. 

if i could turn back time rewind i would, 
if i could make it undone i swear that i would
i would make it up to you
wahhh maher zain sgt tuu....

gambar dua tahun lepas 
seriously they look even better than this right now...
awet muda betol.. parents sapa ntah

maaaaaaa....cepat la balik i need a hug now
okay ... i'm crying so hard .. i don't think could end this post properly.. 
i can't even breathe properly...seriously!!!


imaginary readers! stop reading and go hug your mother!!
kalo yg tengah study jauh2 tu.. call pon boleh~