Tuesday, January 31, 2012 @ 3:39 AM  0 stares

have you ever felt so worthless?

zits all over your face
expanding waistline
your face even feels rounder
no really..it looks like a character in roly poly ollie
when you look into the mirror and don't like what you see
without the influence of a talking mirror

when you go and print something
that turns out to cost more than you expected to
and you didn't bring enough money
and shamefully had to ask the nice lady
if you could possibly come and pay the rest tomorrow.

just when you finished a particular assignment
and someone informed you about the REAL guidelines for the assignment
and there are things that you have to change here and there
to change or not to change
changing would mean to print the whole thing all over again
or maybe i should just ignore it and let it be as it is
the tired feeling..'i dont want to look at it any more' feeling
and the feeling when you have to decide
deciding between the two...marks? or money?

just when you feel so "on the edge" with everyone
when every single thing that people do annoys you
when you feel so alone and want to go home
just when you feel that there's so much to do in so little time
can i finish it on time??? will i have time to do it???

that feeling when you're supposed to be working
but instead, you're updating your blog
just to let it off your chest
and that feeling when you have no idea whether your grammar usage is correct or not
writing.. writing .. but not knowing...

all of that feelings.. 

but then
someone comes along
and sprinkle a tiny portion of appreciation into your life
and all of the feelings fade away

you're even more motivated
your face is smiling
but still your heart is still pacing at a normal rate 

even when you realize that the "appreciation"  was not made specially for you
and that others got a taste of it too
you're still fine.. no anger.. no jealousy.. no love..

that is when you realize that sometimes 
you just need someone to show that they appreciate you
for the worthless, useless, hopeless, helpless person you are
so appreciate me for god's sake!!!

hahaha just kidding.. i'm fine now..
i have been feeling like this all week
honestly, i have never felt like this before..

(i have been feeling - present perfect progressive : for an action that started in the past and still continuing in the present for a specific duration, which emphasise on the fact that is still happening)
(i have never felt like this before- present perfect : indefinite time : clue word : NEVER)

maybe it's because of the hectic week i'm going through
and trust me... the hectic-ness would double every week until my finals

wish me luck..
no! you know what ..don't do that.. i don't need luck!
i need strength.. so pray for me
and give me food okaay!!


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Sunday, January 29, 2012 @ 7:28 PM  0 stares

yep! smiling stupidly in front of the desktop PARTLY because 
i just watched Paradise Kiss Live action movie!

why partly??..wahahaha i don't feel like telling :P

so overall the story was really sweeet!
at first i thought the main lead was a bit too short for the part.. but as i watched the movie, he's the tallest guy there ... so he got an A from me..but his face is a little "baby-faced" ish for the part.. so A-!

the main girl.. i thought was too "girl next door" for the part.. she doesn't look as bold as the character in the anime.. but in the story she wore pretty clothes and looked so pretty in them.. so i give her an A

others... well they're okay... i don't have specific comments for them..

the story line... A+ 
because their moral of the story is :
even though there's someone who you feel like they're controlling your life,
you cannot blame them for controlling it if you let them.
only you have to power to control your life!
so its all up to you!

so today.. i spent my day doing the laundry, eating, watching paradise kiss, and smiling like a maniac in front of the computer.

so tonight, WORK WORK WORK!
hey you! thanks for motivating me :)
you distracting me reminds me not to get distracted!
(haha ayat cam tamil)

have a nice week peep-pets!

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Saturday, January 28, 2012 @ 5:29 AM  0 stares
suddenly, someone comes and makes you believe
when you have lost your faith completely

suddenly you have absolutely nothing to wear 
when you have to feel like wearing something decent

suddenly, all of you 'favourite' individuals are there
when you wish no one would see you

you suddenly feel thirsty 
when you know you have nothing to drink

suddenly, you realize that the internet is a wonderful place
when you have assignments to finish

and suddenly, you feel so lively
when you're supposed to be sleeping.


Wednesday, January 25, 2012 @ 4:43 PM  0 stares
Green makes the world go round
Definition : to be extremely important, so that many ordinary events could not happen without it

money?? is that what you think "green" is for?... 
materialistik betol korang ni ye!!!

for your information that's synecdoche 
a part as a whole.. the colour is used to refer to money
usually american money ..because they are green

and as for malaysian money.. only the 5 ringgit note is green
malysian notes are like pensel kale Luna!
warna-warni gitu

because of that...here.. instead of referring to money... 
the word GREEN i refer to KUIH KETAYAPP!

in my humble opinion.. if kuih ketayap is not green...it would look less appetizing 

just look

okay the blue ones are simply.. grosss!
and the polka dot ones are supposed to be cute..
but for me.. its not as seductive as the green ones
yepp.. i get seduced by food all the time!! XD

and now look at the green ones

butttt.... what's more delicious than greeen ketayap???

soo hyun.. a.k.a song samdong....

okay..ketayap is way more delicious..
but he is prettier~ ..ehhemm.. handsome-er??
look at his broad shoulders...wahhh...

if there's at least one malay guy who looks like this i'll die!!!
(hyperbole! - exagerrated description to create strong emotional response..frequently used for humans )

haha as usual i'mposting right before writing class
stop procrastination and smile :)

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Tuesday, January 24, 2012 @ 3:37 AM  3 stares

these past few days I've been feeling that I want to change... do things differently..
I think its the "Chinese new year spirit"..
where they rearrange their homes according tu fung shui and stuff... 
instead of rearranging household furniture, I want to the metaphorical crates of thoughts in my head...


haha ... during this past few day i didn't do anything productive at all
all i did was.. eat a lot.. sleep really late... talk in high pitch...think about food...

so starting tomorrow.. once i set this big feet of mine on campus : no more procrastination!

 I have a presentation the first thing that Wednesday..
Topic for argumentative essay + 6 articles
College reading test next Wednesday
A really heavy assignment due in a week
Have to read wizards of oz and its really long
Chapter 13 : wiz of oz...explain.. next thursday
Literature test .. only god knows when...
Story telling...memorize?
Ayat hafazan.... bacaan tajwid.. practice2
Topic for informative speech... 
Have to prepare the text as the outline + memorizing it!

gahh.. and the list goes on!...so NINA! START NOW!
well not now.. sleep first.. tomorrow get on the bus.. once you've arrived ...then you START!
no more chit-chat.. no more fangirl-ing...

put your hands up..put your hands up ..pupupupupuput...

all the best peeps! :)


Monday, January 23, 2012 @ 6:44 AM  0 stares
nooooo... .i don't literally have a fever for 49days now.... i'm perfectly healthy...

i really really love 49days
sbs one just had to air reruns of the drama!
you know i'm a fool for hd!
even though i have the drama in my laptop, i still watch it on tv!

soo cuteeeee! i like everything about that drama.. except for the ending
 and i keep on watching it hoping the ending would change
wahahahhaha crazy right!

and... i am so obsessed that i want one of that tear drop necklace!!!
but it's soo expensive!
almost 90 ringgit ..for that one little piece of necklace

i might as well use the money for a lot of food... a few pieces of clothes..huuu

this is not me! i stole the pic..kikiki
the necklace looks so pretty on her!!
 i really want it now!!

but ... is it worth it?
 i'm just scared that once i got it.. i'll put it in a box..
and put it away.. and never see it again... huu
even if i wear it.. no one can see it.. its purely for my own satisfaction

waaa.. i want to be filthy rich!!!!
and spend it not so wisely!

wahhhhhhhh.... they're also showing reruns of the drama SIGN!
i love that one tooo!
the main guy is such a good actor

please excuse my really bad grammar..
i'm too tired to proofread my blog post most of the time
whenver i have something on my mind, i type type type and post

and when i run out of ideas .. i go to bed.. without checking.
and only check when i feel like reminiscing

i should sleep now
nite peeps...
(Time : 6.45AM)

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Wednesday, January 18, 2012 @ 12:35 AM  2 stares
sometimes i feel like this

like a kid...playing dress up
who is acting like she's all grown up..
out of place..
disrupts like a pod
(random sgt...tibe2 terigt death in the opposite house)

i wonder
if that's how people see me

i miss my cat..
i have 2 cats...
but i only miss 1..

so after looking at the 2 pictures above
there's 2 thing is i WANT to do
1. take pictures of my niece in my heels
2.take pictures of my cat...

and actually posting them instead of pictures of other cats
he might not be as cute as the "online-cats" but he's special! <3

as for the things i HAVE to do
the list goes on and on...
but deep down.. i love having things that i HAVE to do
the feeling that i could only experience for another 2 months...
well.. less than 2 months..

gyahhhh..time is ticking..ttt-time is ticking
epik high - one

lets enjoy being busy!!
have a nice life peeps..

please excuse my random style of writing...
i'm an artist!! XD


Sunday, January 15, 2012 @ 11:33 PM  2 stares

(gambar di curi dri fb junior yg pegi france ngan family... untonglaa kaya~)

i want to go there and take a picture like using my own camera!!!!
 kalo la pegi france mmg amik gmbar smpai lebam lahh
aritu gi pavilion pn amik gmbar ngan bear of the worlds tu smpai diorg yg lebam... wahahaha..
kalo dpt la pegi france...silap aribulan kemek eiffel tower tu kan?
well, lets wait until that day comes..

where's there's a will there's a way!!!


@ 2:05 AM  0 stares

Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa

bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya,

masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

*hadith Nabi (:


Wednesday, January 11, 2012 @ 11:37 PM  2 stares
dear leann rhymmes ... or celine dion or whatever your name is .. 
the girl who keeps on singing the song"how do i live without you"

here's your answer girl!

if you keep acting like this : relying on others.. you'll be DEAD!
and again .. let me make it clearer to you.. you'll be DEAD MEAT!

all humans care nowadays a THEMSELVES
yep.. they don't care if your heart breaks 
they don't care if you're bleeding

even if you're diagnosed with cancer, 
they'll probably tell you get well soon and make a really sad face
 but afterwards they'll go karaoke-ing and forget all about you
steamboat...bbq.. buffet..you name it

they don't care if you didn't get the copy of the notes..as long as they do
they don't care if you're hungry.. as long as they're full 
they don't care if you don't study for the test tomorrow.. as long as they did

unless they didn't have the notes..
 if they're hungry and looking for a  friend to go buy food.. 
if they didn't have time to study and completely panicking...


they'll say :
don't have the notes?.. well can you get one for me too
didn't eat yet?.. lets go eat together ..btw  i dont have money.. treat me okay!
did you study?.. you did??.. owh i didn't have time.. wahh can you help me with the answers after this... sit next to me okay!

but its okay... all we have to do is not to hold grudges and let it go
say thank you...say sorry...smile..
and try to change ourselves... we cannot blame everything on others..
most of the things that happens to us are probably because they way we act
so lets think about our actions and keep on going..
even if people try to sabotage us.. or forgets about us on purpose or not on purpose
god will always be there .. he knows everything.. our actions, what our heart says and he's always there to hear us out..

so in a way.. we are never forever alone.. because god is always there for us
have a nice life peeps.. lets fill it up with patience!!


@ 11:53 AM  0 stares

good morning ladies and gentlemen.. its a beautiful day today
 i love the cold weather ... kikiki

i want to try this one day.. cereal + banana + milk!  :

yesterday : no classes
today : 3 classes
tomorrow : one class + muet result
friday : one class
after that .. i'm out of here!! huahahaa...

have a nice life peeps! :) be merry! 

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Saturday, January 7, 2012 @ 5:53 AM  7 stares

have you ever heard of the "french mime".. the mute black and white people who usually play around the the streets of France

well.. i've been feeling like i'm turning into one!
instead of french.. i'm in malaysia.. so i'm a malaysian mime!

so funny how the spelling of the word mime
reminds me of one of my best friend's name mimie.. mimie yahaya! tingtingting

well it's really my fault.. i didn't talk to them so of course wouldn't dare to talk to me

but i did tried...
but every time i speak they would most likely to be  distracted before i finish talking..

but it doesn't matter
doesn't matter

sometimes i feel like it doesn't matter what that one person say..
in people's point of view
if you're reputable, then everything you say is AWESOME
if you seem boring, everything you say is DULL


when the i say something like : 2 x 19 =  38
people would go like : ...ooo.... i like chocolates

when cool people say the exact same thing  : 2 x 19 =  38
people would go like : ..wow she's smart right, she's so pretty, she knows german, she's from school A, bla bla bla.., she's so awesome

but that's okay..
screw those who judge people by how they look
screw those who make friends with someone because of their marks and grade
screw all of those who had ever looked down on me, even once
screw that guy who didn't accept my friend request
screw those who keep on comparing their life with mine

one day.. i'll make sure all of them wish that they had been better to me!

by screw.. i mean..help them screw things at their house! :P
its not nice to wish bad things for others lah!

change yourself.. help others.. be merry!

(merry as in happy.. not marry married!..)

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Tuesday, January 3, 2012 @ 10:56 PM  1 stares

A very ill little boy was telling his Grandma how "everything" was going wrong ...school was too hard, family problems other than his illness, his severe pain, just all the hardships he was going through.

Meanwhile, Grandma was baking a cake. She asked the child if he would like a snack, which of course he does.

"Here. Have some cooking oil."

"Yuck," said the boy.

"How about a couple of raw eggs?"

"Gross, Grandma."

"Would you like some flour then? Or maybe baking soda?"

"Grandma, those are all yucky!"

To which the Grandma replied: "Yes, Sweetheart, those things seem bad all by themselves. But, when they are put together in the right way, they make a wonderfully delicious cake! God works the same way. Many times we wonder why he would let us go through such bad and difficult times, but, God knows that, when He puts these things all in His order, they always work for good!
We just have to trust Him and, eventually the yucky stuff will make of our lives something wonderful!"