Saturday, June 29, 2013 @ 5:18 AM  1 stares
Hi and Assalamualaikum~

today's post is a bit cheerful.. haha..
because my parents & sisters are here.. 
and my next paper is in 2 days 
soo..rilek brotherr.. kite enjoy~~!!!


how i feel when i'm with my family~~

its not that i'm terribly homesick or don't have any friends that i can be crazy with

i'm perfectly fine..
and now i could be as crazy as i am with my family when i'm with my friends
its just that feeling when you're with family..
its different..
its calming... its relaxing... its just nice~

i can be boring
i can be interesting
i can say anything
i can just stay quiet
i can be weird
or perfectly normal
they'll know i'm nina..
the nina that i am
not tini
not dayana



they won't leave me when i fail
they'll be there when i succeed
they won't hover around me when i get the highest marks
they won't be all over me when i win poetry
but still they're behind me 100%

when i fail addmat
when i suck as chemistry
when my physics is a C..+


when i wear tudung bawal with what i usually wear
when i wear tudung bidang berbidang bidang with baju kebaya
when i jubah to midvalley..
when i'm the only one who doesn't wear make up..(so far)
when i wear heels everywhere

eh jap.. tadi niat di hati nk tulis bende lain..
terpaksa tukar tittle..ishh
takpe lah... lain kali lah tulis
hari ni,
i heart my pamily!!
kbai!!






Friday, June 28, 2013 @ 2:17 AM  0 stares

have you ever felt a feeling
that you couldn't get over

a song that you wouldn't get sick of
a conversation you wouldn't get bored of

a joke that never gets old
an actor that never fails to portray his character

a dish that you could eat over and over again
a drink that you'd get bloated with all over again

not like the butterscotch bread i'm sick of
not like the koey teows i'm tired of 

i thought i'm over it
but the next thing i know, 
there i go again

like the nasik ayam i thought i had enough of
now.. i'm craving for them again
but never actually buying them.. 
because i'm afraid it might not be as good as i imagine it to be




what do i mean?
i'm not sure

did i make sense
i don't think i did

does it matter?
no it doesn't ..doesn't it?

esok paper prounciation oiii
takleh jawab jangan gedik nak nangeh nina oiiii 
dan lagi update blog.. ishh
malam masih muda...
mata masih segarr 
ayuh studyy

pray for meee! 
^_____^

Sunday, June 23, 2013 @ 2:04 AM  0 stares



when you're betrayed over and over again
instead of crying
all you can do is laugh

when you're ignored all the time
instead of trying to catch their attention
you might as well laugh

rejected again and again
instead of beating myself over it 
all i can do i laugh

when everything seems like a mess
instead of panicking 
all i did was laugh

when there's only one thing i could think about
instead of thinking about it
i laughed.. 



laughter is the best medicine
and there's nothing like crazy friends 
awesome siblings
and most importantly incredible parents
to help you laugh

excessive laughter kills the heart?
well.. it heals mine..
well i don't think i laughed excessively 
what's life without a few laughter once in a while ..
kaaaan?


final week.. ikuzouuu!!
see you soon kelantan~!
see you soon Ramadhaan!!!


Friday, June 7, 2013 @ 3:38 AM  3 stares



Assalamualaikum and hi~ 

so today, i've decided to share something that i have been feeling ..
a great feeling ..maybe i've told you before maybe not.. 

whenever i worry about the future.. 
about who i'm going to be and question who i am,  
why doesn't anyone like me, why am i me and so on and so forth..
there's this one feeling... as if someone is comforting me...
even though i literally feel crazy, this sudden feeling calms me.. 

and also as motivation to myself..
because writing "a letter to myself" is too mainstream

here it goes.. (the one written in bracket is my comment)
ni rekaan tauu!..nnti ade yg igt letter btoi2.. adoii... 

sila sediakan baldi 3 bijik!!


dear future wifey.. (ehh thats not right.. i dont want my husband to speak like that)

hai adik cantik manis..(okay now he sounds bangla..taknaktaknak)

assalamualaikum~ (cewahh...bgi salam dah cair)
*lalu beliau sambung ya ahlilkubur (lalu lempang future husband bila dah jdi husband nnti)

sihat? makin gemuk? takpe makin gemuk makin sayang.. (blueekks)
ni nk habaq mai
nina tgh stress eh?..semua kawan pakat kawen..semua pakat bertunang.. semua dah ada boypren..
nina ja xdak lagi?... nina ja yg x pernah?.. rilek nina... abg ade ni..
x jumpa nina je lagi.. ye la.. invisible sokmo
org nk ckp lari.. org ckp ngan dia, dia suh org lain jwb.. mana xnye
org bekenan kt dya, dya rijek... nina berkenan, nina pulak kena rijek
kesian nina...
tau x nape jdi camtu?
sbb ape?
bukan sbb nina tak comel
bukan sbb nina jahat
bukan sbb nina gedik.. walaupon gedik tu ada la sket
tpi sbb abg..


ye salah abg
abg buat ape?
abg doa kat Allah supaya jaga nina baik2..
jgn bgi org lain tgk aurat dia
jgn bgi org lain dgr suara dia
jgn bgi org lain nampak dia... nampak pon xleh..jgn2
abg ni jeles tahap gaban... lagi kuat jeles drpd nina tau..
sbb tu abg doa mcm tu

igt x masa explorace time 1st sem degree
tiba2 nina kena  nyanyi... semua org focus..
nina pon x leh nk pikir nk nyanyi lagu apa..
padahal lagu blambak dlm otak tu..mcm la abg x tau kan
pastu tiba2..nampak lecturer berlari2..kena denda
semua org duk sibuk kat lecturer tu
pastu masa tu bru nina boleh nyanyi
n org len x dgr pon.. kakak senior yg jaga check point je dgr
dah sudah tu, semua org pon tnya.. "Eh..dah??"
igt x?? kann?.. makbul kan doa abg XD

igt knape semua gambar nina nk upload xleh upload?
langsung xleh upload kan?
ada ja yg x kena... x load lah.. internet out lah
haha ..abg nye keje lah tu..

ce pikir lagi.. mcm2 lagi kan yg jadi kat nina
mesti nina pikir kenapa jadi kat nina..
dalam ramai2.. knape nina... sgt mcm drama korea..
better drpd drama korea
sbb abg ler.. abg siap nyanyi lagu lagi kat nina
"tuhannn.. jagakan diaaaa"

sbb tu semua yg nina berkenan, x berkenan kat nina..
sbb tu semua yg berkenan kat nina, nina pulak x berkenan kat depa
sbb abg dah doa.. jgn laaa bini aku jatuh hati kat org len.. jatuh hati kat aku ja boleh?

tpi kadang.. ada yg xleh nk di halang kan
yg nina sendiri cari pasal..
abg tau.. hahaha
takpa... nina pon kna cri abg jugak..
abg mencari sengsorang mmg smpai bila x dpt ahh kan

sbelum nina.. abg mungkin ada pernah dgn org len
tpi kalau ada pon..dia mengajar abg untuk x sakitkan nina mcm mna dia sakitkan abg
lgipon dia x sama ngan nina ku yg pelik lagi aneh
nina ku yg boring lagi membosankan
nina ku yg lawak dikala x pandai buat lawak
nina ku yg ayu tapi gangster

so nina.. xpyah duk risau sgt
pi study nun.. phonetic?.. lancom? socio? ..sila2
nnti dpt 4flat ungkit la balik "ayang dlu 4flat.. bukan mcm abg..sibuk mggatay ngan awek mana ntah"
nina baiki diri nina
both duniawi.. ukhrawi.. jadi yang terbaik untuk mama papa nina
abg pon nk baiki diri abg dlu..jaga pamily abg..
nnti bila dah smpai scene kta jumpa, jumpa lahh..
masa tu, nina sndiri akan tau, untuk x lari drpd abg mcm nina lari drpd semua org
nina sndiri akan tau untuk x krik2 abg.. mcm nina krik2 semua org
tpi kalo lepas kawen bru nk blaja cara nk komunikasi pon boleh..
abg x kisah *tgn di dada, mata pdg atas

jgn peduli depa kata kt nina
"kalau x ckp ngan laki mcm mna nk kawen"
nina jadi nina ja... tau!
jgn duk jadi org len.. x suka


nina igt ni je
bila abg jumpa nina.. abg tau tu nina
abg akan tau nina x mcm org len..
and semua org yg x nmpak ke-awesome-man nina tu, depa yg x pndai tgk
diorg nilai dgn rupa.. nilai dgn perkara zahir.. nilai ngan nafsu
org yg pandai tgk je akan nampak si nina yg invisible ni
hehe makna kata, abg pndai tgk lah.. walaupon abg rabun (hahahah i want a rabun husband..)

tpi still nina kne kawan ngan org..
pi lah kawan..x salah.. blaja sket2...
tpi kalo diorg x reti hormat nina.. blah..
tpi nina pon xleh la sensitip sgt tau!..

xperlu tudung bulat ala ustazah
xperlu purdah, niqab bagai
xperlu post guna terma bahasa arab..
xperlu peplum tribal
xperlu free hair..
nina tahu kan apa yg boleh, apa yg xleh
pndai2 la nina jaga diri tau



xperlu post status kbahagiaan kat fb ..nnti org tgk
xperlu post tweet perasaan kat twitter.. tu meroyan namanya
Allah kan ada
igt tweet nina "if others come to you with their problems, why wont you?"
dannn yg paling penting, Allah kan adeee...

abg nk kata xperlu update blog.. tpi nina kan nk publish jadi buku..so teruskan!
tapi x perlu la jiwang sgt.. seorg muslimah itu tidak jiwang tau!
nnti kita kawen kita jiwang together..skarang simpan dlu
tulis kat blog pon tulis lahh.. nnti abg pangkah puas2..padan muka hang

igt x bila syamimi tanya, nina nk org macam mana
and masa tu jwapan nina bernas sgt
bukan arkitek yg mengarut nina duk sebut tu
haaa.. jawapan yg bernas tu la abg...
tunggu tau!.. jgn risau bila abg nk dtg.. abg mai punyaa
nina pi study.. do what you do best!
enjoy your life tapi jgn galak sgt
igt mati.. jagalah hati..
doa bnyk2 kita ditemukan di masa yg sesuai
tau!

selamat malam.. pi tidoq pi..assalamualaikum
till we meet for the first time :)


and there you go... 
3 baldi muntah pelagi! XD 

hahaha aku mmg suka post pelik2 menjelang final...
pray for me! 
^______________^